here’s a soulful and stirring gem to get the week, as short as
it is, started courtesy of a star group from Motown Records,
The Four Tops. enjoy!
it’s 5 AM as i write this, and the creeping dread i’ve
been fighting has risen up to render sleeping impossible
for now. so i’m doing the only thing that makes sense for
me to do at this moment in time.
i’m writing to chase these clouds away.
over the past couple of years, i’ve been in a position
where i have had to remove my blinders and keep them off.
what do i mean by blinders? specifically, all of the things
that some folks use to get through life. hell, to get past
the DAY at times. things like over-indulging in shopping,
excessive gossip, drowning myself in reality television. i
found that to a degree, taking those blinders off allowed
me to see. it also exposed my sight to the searing, painful
smoke that comes with fear. i know that enlightened mean do
not fear. but it doesn’t stop fear from swarming in. and in
truth, there’s a climate that exists these days that somewhat
demands that you bring fear into your life and home or else
face its wrath. and what is its’ wrath? indifference. apathy.
constant anxiety. tears. sadness. depression. the feeling that
you’ll never get past where you are now. the feeling of being
left behind by life.
i’ve had my time amidst those clouds. i’ve recently come to
grips with the fact that i had more than likely been hit with
mild depression due to a number of things going on. and i know
now that i had to have my eyes feel that pain. my vision needed
to feel the burn. i needed to confront every bit of doubt in a
cold, calculated way and rely on the fact that i’ve been here
before. and i’ve driven into these clouds head on every time.
and managed to make it out just fine. just seeing these words
in front of me now, as the silver morning light edges up to the
windows tells me i will get through them again. and it’s because
i’m allowing myself to see everything better now. i’m allowing
my eyes to not only see all that is, but all that could be. and
i’m not looking back like i used to.
if you’re reading this, i thank you for it. if you’re going
through something similar, i hope that you have the same
revelations i’ve had and can continue on without fear.
to capture that sliver of cream
that sits on the sash across the waist of the sky
and i’m sure she does not mind you borrowing it
it goes well
with the cinnamon laden in your eyes
and while i’ve spoken at length
about the mysteries twinkling in your smile
the glow that makes me curious
is that which emanates
from the delicate sculpture of your thighs
they dictate a walk that’s regal
and only the trusted know what secrets they hide
mysteries of supple velvet
made vivid by you
no wonder you make cotton sheets sigh.
was like sitting atop a boat
slipping slowly beneath the face of the ocean
and maybe she’s the only one
who could make sense
of a woman who came to me for dollars
and found my words
broke change free in her heart
yes, loving you
made me a salt soon to join the sea
i didn’t go quietly
i held onto ron anejo
quite a few of your kisses
the song of your satisfied sighs
it made nearly drowning in sadness
less of a burn to the eyes.